Dyslexia Annoys Me Part 2

A couple of days ago I started writing this unsure of where I was going with it other than, knowing that my dyslexia has really been bothering me of late. What I wanted to write was a nice informative piece which went in to details about dyslexia and my thoughts on it. Yet looking back at the first part, I can see my dyslexia in full effect. What I mean by this, if you go back and read the the post I start talking about one subject(Dyslexia) then as I carry on writing I start talking about another subject(my friends). One of the main parts of my dyslexia is struggling to get my point across. Im now going to explain in detail what my Dyslexia is like so that people understand what its like. When I was assessed 2003 I was informed that I have Sever Dyslexia. I knew I was Dyslexic but not to that extent.

The best way I find to summarise my dyslexia is imagine a clock work machine that has been fitted with the wrong sized cogs inside. This means when the machine is instructed to do some thing, it attempts to do it but ultimately cant as the insides don't work correctly.

When attempt to write anything down it is an incredibly hard task for me to complete it. I know with in my mind, how I would like to express my self but for some reason when my brain sends these commands to my hands, what is written down is not necessarily done in the correct manor. Its also the same when I'm talking, I know what I want to say but its difficult for me get across what my point is. There has and always will be moments when I'm talking to people and I just go on a loop and keep repeating my self with out realising, of course people find it funny and have a laugh at me. Its makes it difficult because when I was younger and this happened there were more than a few occasions when I wanted (and did sometimes) lash out people. Luckily as time has gone on I have learned to control this and I realise not every one knows why I cant express myself at times.

Another part of my dyslexia that comes into play is my hand to eye coordination. A lot people probably think I am just incredibly clumsy and whilst that might be true sometimes, but not always. It also one of the main reasons why I still have not learned to drive, as I think I could be a hazard on the roads. Although saying that where ever I go,no matter if its work, home or a foreign country/place, I have to know my way around it. The first time I go to these places, it usually makes me a little bit nervous but as soon as I can find my way around them it makes it easier for me as I memorise where stuff is. I know it sounds seriously intense but its not to bad! I just do not like to be lost so I explore stuff as much as possible so I know what im doing.

The most frustrating part of my dyslexia though is being unable to document the ideas I have knocking about in my brain. It has always bothered me that it take a gargantuan effort for me to write stuff down. I know a few of my newer friends over the last few years have a had a bit of success with their writing efforts, which is fantastic, but it makes me wonder whether I truly have it in me to be able to write to their standard. I still attempt to write but in all honesty it takes a lot out of me. Even when I am at work and I have to document information, I find it incredibly taxing at times and I have to get some one else to read it too to make sure the information is relevant and I know the more I write the more confident I will become.

So I think that's the best summary of my dyslexia. Of course I do also have some of the more common elements too, such as bad grammar,poor handwriting and spelling. Now as this is the last day of April and I have hardly done any posts this months, I am going to get back on track with Comlexia and update it a lot more regularly.

The main reason I started this blog is because if you search books for dyslexics on a lot of book websites, they have a lot of information but its only relevant for the younger readers. I want this blog to detail as much as possibly whether its comics, books, films or whatever,so that if other dyslexics want to know what if its good for them they can find a review on the internet.

Don't get me wrong, Im sure Horrid Henry is a good book for young dyslexics, but what about the adults? And that is what I want to change!